Its been awhile. i guess alot has been going on...
this past wednesday marked 9 years my grandfather has been gone. early that morning the last member of his side of family, died. there is no one else left out of his family.
She always called me the adopted granddaughter, i asked her to celebrate grandparents day with me when i was litte, in place of my grandfather. Ever since then I have been the adopted granddaughter...
lately death has surrounded me. everyone in my community is dying.
now i end up feeling even more alone.
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Memory:
Sitting watching a movie and just start bawling.
I stopped crying a long time ago.
I cant even tell you what the movie was or what it was about.
Nothing happened that made me cry.
I just reached the point where all i could do was cry...
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The night thinking and thinking finally caught up with me.
Now i just want to cry again and again.
