Have you ever felt so alone that you feel this hole inside you? The hole getting bigger and bigger with each passing day, nothing helps it. Pretty soon the hole consumes you and you find it hard to fake that smile every day, you start seeing everything in a bad way. When friends tell you they love you, you say it back because you do love them but you can't feel their love for you. Little kids smiling and laughing makes you smile at their innocence but you can't help but wonder why you never had that same smile and you are jealous of them. You feel ruined. Like you are not enough for anyone, because honestly you aren't. You haven't smiled a real smile in a long time. You have become a stranger to your close friends and to yourself. You can't see the light at the end of the tunnel and you are afraid that this darkness you have become is the only thing you will ever be.
This has become my life, I hate it...
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