Trapped

Trapped..

trapped by reality.
why cant i move forward?

i cant go back.
i cant go forward.
im trapped. stuck.

today sucked.
-im missing almost $600 from my bank account.
-had an interview and they told me it was cancelled but failed to call me.
-the guy. the one i can never forget, decided to be an asshole to me today. for no reason.
-the head aches are coming back, when they come the spasms soon follow.
-im getting sicker.
-im having the chance i passed up, getting waved in front of my face again.

ive been doing better too.
i have wonderful frieends, yet i still feel so alone.
i dont want to be alone anymore.
im tired of the pain. hurt. suffering.
i want it to be over.
but as said before, i wont give up.

idk what to do anymore...
i want to fade away, disappear.
i will come back...i promise.

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Memory:

i dont want to remember tonight....